You know that feeling? I know.. now. That somehow right now, the feeling I have is like I am at ease, at peace where I am, at the right place at the right time. This moment, it feels like it is where I was meant to be.
I am just lying on my bed wondering how I could maximize my time doing operational and winding my knowledge reading. I got tons of books that I bought over the past 1 year and I told myself NOT to go kino anymore lest I end up buying another 10! Perhaps weekends should be spent reading more.
I finally am done with my full time job and it was really tough doing it and Just Tangy, because juggling both was demanding and took up a lot of my time & energy. I have my family to thank for helping me out, and understanding that half the time I was tired & grumpy. After 1.5 years I finally let go my full time job and going to concentrate on Just Tangy 110% now. Also, I didn’t have time to spend with family and friends, especially my grandparents – I hardly visited them during that time, and hardly met friends because I end work late and would be busy at night with Just Tangy, on weekends would be spending with Alvin & my own family and tending to Just Tangy as well. Even wedding preps, I didn’t do much & didn’t even research on things I like e.g wedding gown, look etc.
So with more time now, and the wedding nearer, I at least I have some time to breathe, rest my tired self that was working non stop for 1 year plus. I can’t even remember the last movie I watched. Also, alvin changed his job and he has more time now in the evenings and weekends. He used to work 6 to 7 days a week and 10 hours a day. So i am really happy that we get to spend more time now, and enjoying a more relaxed pace with everything. We now have time to go work out a little, hang out a little, take walks, explore some random new place, have dinner together. I guess little things in life like this could really make us happy. I really appreciate that both of us have more time to sit back a little now.
So yes, we are coming to the end of the year and God has really blessed us indeed.
And I must say that I know that running a business won’t be easy and isn’t easy as people think it might be – I felt insulted when people told me “oh, so you very free now” / “you are not really doing anything” / “you are not working what..” because I run my own business. Honestly, I was quite hurt by that type of comment, because it just means I have more flexibility over my time now and am not “very free”, or “lazy” because I work my hours a day, and a whole lot more things to do then a normal full time job. I told alvin and he’s like well they will never know, so ignore them. So yes I decided I shall just let them think that way, I guess it isn’t a bad thing if people think I can do “not much” & still run a sucessful one! People do work hard for their own businesses which nobody knows, because it’s all behind closed doors. :’)
Maybe in terms of work, if you know Steve jobs famous quote on work – “If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on.”
Anyway, today I had this feeling of content, that I am where I was supposed to be, and it feels nice and peacefully. (Sorry I can’t explain it in a better way). Perhaps in terms of everything besides just work, I had initially thought it was just about work. But now I think it is about everything, and maybe I am starting to see how I want and envisioned my life to be like. I hope this feeling or whatever last for long long time.